I went home to the place of my birth this past Friday and Saturday. Hampton, Virginia. It was a quick trip to see my mother and brother and their families. We had a blast and it was good to reconnect with my roots. As a child I didn’t spend that much time there because my father was in the military. But I still call it home since the nucleus of both my father and mother’s family live there.
While in our hotel room I was drafting some blog posts for the upcoming week. During the course of a conversation my family was having I heard them say that, “Tony is very positive.” In fact all of them said it a couple of times. When I was first mentioned I laughed, but was taken aback a little. Almost to the point that it was unbelievable. Am I too positive? Do they not believe it? Do I come across as superficial? Is my journey not real? If not what the hell am I doing?
The feelings of doubt quickly subsided. In a matter of minutes. Years ago I was a very pessimistic person. I was lost and just existing through life. Allowing the conditions around me to dictate the outcome of my decisions and my life. Not anymore. Not ever again. I am an optimist because looking for the bad in everything was too draining on my soul. I want people to believe in me, but not by only what I say. More by what I do. This is me to my core. Through every fiber of my body.
My journey is real. Even if I don’t know every twist and turn. I don’t know the final outcome. I know what I want to happen. I know what I am working to achieve. I want to change people’s perception of me. It’s true, I write for myself. But I know I am helping others (thanks Matt) because they are letting me know. At the same time I am helping myself.
So I am going to continue trust the process. Enjoy the journey. Remain positive and keep working at it.